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No one has the right to judge usbecause no one really knows what we have been through. They may have heard about our stories, but they never did once feel what we have felt in our hearts 
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25. Something worth fighting for
Saturday, February 13 | Back to the top|  When one makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamt of when he first made the decision. First of all, I would like to wish my readers, A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARXD and the couples out there, HAPPY Valentine's Day Time really has the magic to transform one into a totally different person. As I sifted through my memory bank, I could only remember myself watching him grow physically and mentally since my tender childhood. It has been a year since I last saw him, so the moment when I turned around the corner to enter the restaurant, before even our eyes met, he dived swiftly into the restaurant but not quick enough, for I was able to appraise his huge frame in that instant. [My jaw literally dropped:P] When I stood at the table in the restaurant, not knowing what to do next, Mum urged me to sit beside him so I walked in an awkward manner and took the seat beside him. I did not know why I felt so out of place sitting beside him; afterall, I have been sitting beside him every year for our reunion dinner... It must be the one year gap of not paying any visits to him, on my part. In the past, we always have an infinity amount of stuff to chat about, not even my parents' persuasion for me to leave ['cuz I have school the next day] could stop us. Now... those long conversations were reduced to a few words of mere politness. I would not use the word 'animosity' but after that, I could feel an uncomfortable wall building between us. In response, I leaned further away from it. He really changed a lot. Now, he towers above me, looked so grown-up and seen sprouting some pimples. Such stark contrast from that time... Must be the work of the growth hormones. I also noticed he always referred to his mobile phone every few minutes and announced how much time has passed, something he had never done before during our reunion dinner. At that instant, I felt like I'm sharing dinner with a stanger, whose facial countenance was oddly familar... Over the dinner, I wished so badly he would strike a conversation with me ['cuz I really want to know how he is doing these days] but when he opened his mouth to ask me a question, a lie rolled out of my tongue. [I had this premonition that he would ask me this question, so I made up a lie to protect myself...] It was the FIRST lie I had said to him after all these years. I ought to be ashamed to say that he has changed, when I was the one who had changed first... The second I knew I lied to him, I regretted immediately, and had this strong impulse to tell him what I said before wasn't the truth... My remorse is growing since then... I wonder if our friendship will head for the worst after what I had done... If it did, I think I deserve it.  Ohhh. I have changed the skin. This skin is best viewed in MFF, so if it turns out weird in your browser or different from the picture above, please switch to MFF or download it. Thank you very much. TAG REPLIES 010110, 0008 Celine: Thanks! Happy belated new year to you!!! 010410, 0012 Tricia: Thanks:D 011210, 1947 Yun: Thanks for your heartfelt thoughts... Sorry to make you worry. I will not dwell too much on it since what is done is done and I can't turn back time [although I REALLY wish I could]. I also hope you will be happy and you must not let the work load take a toll on you. All the best to your upcoming exams and major O's. 011510, 1230 melody: FINALLY! I guess it's about time you do so:Dhahahas 011810, 0801 melody: THANKS! At least you are one of the veryyy few who noticed!!! Afterall, without these pictures, my blog will be v. dull and boring:P 100124, 23:35 Melody: TAGGED!!! x2 100125, 11:08 =michelle=: I will. I planned on changing the url soon so I did not tell you until I settle on a fixed url... I'm sorry:S 100126, 17:23 Celine: I ALSO MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! All of you are so much better than my CG. I cant believe I'm studying in such a place... *sob* 100126, 17:58 Benj:D: Gahhh!!! I'm going to change my blog url... Oops! SORRY! Anw, thanks for leaving a tag. THANK YOU! XD 100128, 17:47 Melody: haha?????? ?????? 100201, 19:19 Celine: I really hope it is not!!! REALLY... If there are any class gathering, you have to sms me about it, and I will squeeze time out to go:D Sources: raewrites--x3, Santiago / Paulo Coelho |